Monday, May 29, 2006

I'm workin' on it; I promise....

Saturday, May 20, 2006

On the Road Again

Well, I'm off to Savannah again this weekend to take care of some movie stuff....and hopefully some much-needed beach time. Apparently, we'll be staying at the home of the lady who played the abused daughter in Mommie Dearest, so I'm bringing extra wire hangers. And, since being on the road usually makes me pretty contemplative & introspective, I'm sure I'll have at least something to write about when I get back in a few days.

I've been thinking a lot about the other blog idea I talked about the other day, and I think that I'm gonna continue here for the time being, whether I'm talking about the past or not....sometimes, I just need to talk, period. Thanks for all the comments you guys left in the last week; I've taken many of them to heart, even if I haven't said so. I'm gonna hit the road...hope it doesn't hit back. See ya Tuesday...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Alright; I stole this from Dating Dummy's blog, but I wanted to do my own research. Just curious what you guys think...

Have you ever had a Blog Crush and would you date that person?
Yes, I've had a blog crush, and yes I'd go out on a date with that person.
Yes, I've had a blog crush, but I wouldn't go out on a date with that person.
No, I haven't had a blog crush, but I'd go out on a date if the right one came along.
No, I haven't had a blog crush, and no I wouldn't date a blogger.

Free polls from

Friday, May 12, 2006

The Ballad of X

You know, once again, with everything that's been going on the past couple of weeks, I just haven't felt like living in the past here so much. I'm pretty sure that's been a big part of my problem all along. But then again, I get in these moods a lot, and I always fall back into it eventually.

In any case, I just haven't felt like writing about it all lately. I have felt like writing sometimes, but nothing that really belongs here. I've been thinking of starting up another blog, maybe; one that actually deals with the present, and doesn't have to exist solely under the shadow of my failed relationships...'cus I'm pretty tired of living there, myself. Not that I still don't want to finally bring all this up to date at some point, but there's something to be said for my day-to-day thoughts being separated from all this stuff I like to dwell on. Especially when I look at the cold hard facts; I haven't been motivated to even go on a date in 2 years now, but somehow I've managed to write about 500,000 words about women I haven't seen in a decade. You do the math.

It's not that I don't think I've been learning things about myself from doing this; I think it's been very good for me, overall. It just makes me think sometimes; the whole concept of it. I've been defining my entire life by this for so long that it's just become a part of who I am. I'm the guy with the one(s) who got away, and just can't get past it. I'm the guy that the lead character meets in a bar one night, who tells him some sad, poignant story about his past that puts everything into perspective for the hero & finally makes him resolve to go back & get the girl and face down the evil railroad baron & save the day. Sure, it's a good part & everyone who sees the movie remembers the guy...but I want to be the hero again for a change.

Then again, who knows; if there's one thing I have learned about myself, it's that there's no telling how I'm gonna feel when I wake up tomorrow. Like, when I woke up this morning, I still didn't feel like writing...but here I am. Right now, though, I feel like I've got get back to the future for a while...somehow. That doesn't mean I'm going anywhere, but I do need to quit dwelling, and I'm feeling more & more like that's what this project is all about. Shocking, I know. Whatever I do, I plan to keep blogging, 'cus no matter what's going on, I'm always gonna want somebody to listen to me whine about's one of my basic needs.

Anyway, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. I'm thinkin' about it...and I'm open to ideas. Stay tuned...

Wednesday, May 3, 2006

Double Ow

Ok, the world is kickin my ass again; as soon as the foot got better, a huge toothache came on & my face feels like I gave Mr. T too much jibber-jabber. I've been out of bed maybe a total of 8 hours in what seems like the past week, and the pain is just great enough to totally cancel out any of the fun the good drugs I'm on might give me. I gotta get a laptop so I can blog this stuff in bed...

Anyway, no new news on lil' sis or much has just been pretty lousy the last few days. I'm goin' back to bed...somebody bring me some soup.