Saturday, February 25, 2006

The Tired & the Sick...

Well, there's still no good news. Yesterday, they thought that everything was going to be pretty simple & they were just going to keep her overnight, give her some medicine to help dissolve the clot, and send her home the next morning. So, last night, she was feeling a little down still, but everything looked promising, and she got to sleep somewhere around midnight, so I left her there with her mom & went home.

Sometime between Thursday night & Friday morning, something happened that made them decide they needed to take her back to surgery & insert some sort of filter into her leg to stop it from possibly reaching her lungs, and put her on a stronger medicine afterwards, that they would have to administer intravenously & monitor her in ICU while she's on it overnight.

So, the poor little thing was scared to death before she went in for her 'procedure', as they called it (I call it surgery; I don't care how simple they say it is, if they cut you open & stick something in or take something out, its goddamn surgery), but she made it through ok, although they said she'd still not 100% out of the woods yet, and may be in intensive care for a few days now. They wouldn't let anyone stay with her tonight in the ICU, but her mom said she was just going to stick around the hospital anyway. I tried to get her to go back & sleep at my place & I would stay there with her, but she wouldn't do it, so she's been there for almost 48 hours straight, without so much as a change of clothes.

Alan came back into town today, also (he moved away to start his new job & new life under his mother-in-law's regime last week), and he & his wife went for their ultrasound. Turns out they're having a girl...which just fits with the way his life has been going lately. I mean, yeah, I'm happy for them, but like I said before, that kid's gonna need all the help I can give it to be normal, and being a girl isn;t gonna make my job any easier...although we do have a seriously kick-ass name picked out for her; think superhero's girlfriends...

And I'm tired, I'm worried, and now I feel bad that I didn't stay with Lanie last night when I had the chance. And yes, I know she'll probably be ok, but it's just the thought of her, the one who constantly excercises, eats healthy, teaches yoga, and whips my ass into shape whenever she can, being the one lying over there in that hospital bed, when I'm sitting here smoking like a chimney & eating french fries at 3 in the morning...although the irony of it did make her laugh tonight, at least. I'd trade places with her in a second if I could, though. They gave her the Dr. Feelgood shot before I left, so I'm sure she's drugged up & sleeping sound, but I'll probably still worry. And should I feel bad for thinking that her nurse was cute, and for looking to see if she had a ring on? 'Cus I did...

And in response to Moon Watcher's comment, no, I don't think this will awaken some long-dormant feelings we have for each other or anything, but I don't think I could love her any more if it did, and I couldn't be any more worried about her than I already am. As I've said before, it's by far the most successful relationship I've ever had with a female, and the only thing that could kill that faster than her dying would be us getting together. Besides, we tried that already, briefly, when we first met, and had we dated for any longer than we did, I guarantee you she would be long gone from my life by now...and I would've had to set aside another color for her when I'm running low as it is....

I dunno; I just thought I was finally done with hospitals & people I love being sick for a while. I'm gonna try to pass out now; we'll see how it goes...

5 Comments:

Blogger Mint Tulip recalled...

My mom always stayed with me when I was in the hospital, even when other people offered to. And, despite best friends and serious boyfriends, she's who I wanted there. Still hoping everything works out well and still keeping fingers crossed for her!

Saturday, February 25, 2006 7:58:00 AM  
Blogger Empress recalled...

X, don't feel guilty for checking out the nurse! You're human after all, and the world doesn't stop because someone is ill. I know you already know that, but it's nice to have it repeated from time to time. This was bashed into my head when my mom died. I remember thinking, the next morning while sitting on the steps, crying, that the birds shouldn't be singing because mom died. Then I laughed at that thought, and the healing began.
Secondly, her mom is a mom and won't leave until she knows FOR SURE that her baby is going to be ok. Is there any way you can swing by her home and pick out a fresh change of clothes for her? Maybe grab her deodarant as well? Hair brush, toothbrush and paste? I know she'd greatly appreciate that, and it would make her feel tremendously better. :)

Keeping positive thoughts going out that all will be ok! Get some rest, and try, no matter how futile it will be, to get mom to at least take a nap. :):)

Hugs,
Empress
aka V~V

Saturday, February 25, 2006 9:07:00 AM  
Blogger Your Doctor's Nurse recalled...

Empress's comment is right on, X. Being there for your friend may also mean being there for her mom.

The one and only thing that you can do is be there for her...and let the doctors do their thing. Remember, they are professionals.

And as for Alan - YOU are not responsible for raising their child to be "normal". You don't need to assume that burden and they may not want you too. Again, just BE THERE.

And take it easy on yourself.

Enough unsolicited advice?!?

Saturday, February 25, 2006 11:01:00 AM  
Blogger chicaleecious recalled...

Haven't read much. I'm on vacation still and on my way home, but just wishing Lanie well and you to stay stronger than ever.

Saturday, February 25, 2006 12:46:00 PM  
Blogger Charlotte recalled...

maryjane? i don't want to venture into the lois arena, i don't know why but i'm not too partial to that name - not that it matters what i'm partial to ;)

i'm so sorry that you keep getting hit with all this shit. i hope your friend gets better and i hope that alan and his wife have their beauitful baby. and you will be uncie x who will teach her about comic books and how to stay away from the assholes in the world.

i hope this week will be better than the last :x

Sunday, February 26, 2006 11:43:00 AM  

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